Staring at a blank screen wondering what wit and wisdom that I can provide to my part of the garden today. And I honestly have no clue, so I will write spontaneously and see if anything comes of it...'stead of my old shit. (: First shot....
I have been horribly busy with Beauty and the Beast. We were running like crazy to get that show up. We held up opening the doors until 640pm the night of the show so we could finish rehearsing. We never had ONE rehearsal with everyone in it...not until performance. It's crazy sometimes how much that can stress you out and creep into your very soul. BUT the kids ROCKED, like they always do. We only have 16 hours of rehearsal for these shows. And with this show we had TWO casts so everything moved twice as slowly. It's a pure miracle that it occured. But I believe in these kids. I believe in Tina and I believe in myself. We've pretty much figured out how to produce a musical in truly under 8 hours. I wouldn't recommend it to others and I certainly prefer to be much more prepared going into a performance. But it's nice to know we can do it if need be.
I have recently been pondering retirement. I KNOW!! I'm only 43, but I'm an old soul, a young soul and a guy who wants to slow down and enjoy the time I have left. I have many many thoughts of selling our house, the Center and buying a patch of land and living in a cabin. All I really need to live is my wife, my boy, an ax and peanut butter cups. As long as we have internet access and my motorcycle, we'll be fine. ha. But I have really been pulled to being in nature lately. I find myself just wanting to be a human OUTSIDE. Nothing special, just time in the outdoors. I'm hopeful this summer will grant me that. I will wrestle for it if I have to. Looking for a return trip to the Badlands in the fall.
I'm also finding myself increasingly less tolerant of pretense and superficiality...in people, organizations, etc. I am aching for some true, good, meaningful communication with this world and the people in it. It seems everything is just moving so fast these days that time to stop, enjoy a cold drink and talk about the awesome mystery that is life, is near non-existent. I'm starting to care less and less about status. I don't mind if I look the fool, anymore. Nobody really knows what's going on here on this planet. Hardly anyone thinks about it...at least out loud. It's so sad how many of us are bored with our lives when it's a f*cking mystery and miracle that we are even here at all. I can't tell you how many times I see "I.am.so.bored." on FB statuses. Silly, really. We would all do quite well to wipe the pollution from our eyes, drop our screens and go outside and kick a ball around and then stare up at the clouds.
I'm glad Obama finally said he is for equal marriage rights for gays. Finally, someone takes a stand. I'm not a huge Obama fan, but I voted for him and held a lot of hope when he was elected. It was nice to see some balls there.
Ok. That's all the time I have...very stream of consciousness, I know and not too deep today. Here I am complaining about superficiality and I'm being it myself. I am a hypocrite sometimes. Yes, I am.
I will leave you with this quote that has been percolating for a while in my brain. I like it. My buddy likes it. It's a little bit deep. Peace out!
"I have made some horrible mistakes in my life. I have really screwed up at times. But by God, I am going to END WELL."~~Dino Hayz
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