Day Four. You Can't Suck at Meditation

Another quick post as we are in that little zone on "Papa and Eli Fridays" where he is attempting a nap (Eli) and I have a few moments before Mama gets home and I head into the theatre. I tried to nap myself. Gave myself a limit of 45 minutes and was out cold for about.......7 minutes. Oh well, I'll take what I can get.

Today's Centering Prayer session was another early one. My sleep has been very disturbed the last few months. Either the boy, the bladder or the cat. So up today at 4am. Settled in for a nice centering session and was bombarded with thought after thought. So I watched, got caught up, remembered, got caught up, got caught up, got caught up, remembered, got caught up, etc, The time truly seemed like hours had passed. At one point I questioned whether or not my timer had stopped working. Nothing too mystical or divine today. At least on the surface.

I was reminded today of how easy it would be to simply give up on this practice...and it's only day FOUR! You're sitting there being tossed about by thought and emotion and trying your best to keep your sacred word in the mix. But I remember hearing the phrase, "you can't suck at meditation...other than by getting up and walking away."

It's just part of the process. It's like anything else. I remember when I first started running in the mornings. The idea of running was so intriguing and fun. The actual running was hard and got me out of breath and sometimes made my legs hurt. I almost gave up after day two. But after a few weeks, I could definitely tell a difference in my energy level and my mobility. The same holds true here. That silence, even attempted silence; or dis-identification, with thought creates a cumulative effect. The point is you're there. You're doing it. And the attempt, the willingness on your part to go to a deeper place is what truly allows the miracle to happen.

You just CAN'T suck at meditation.

Soon, I want to deviate into some other issues coming up through this Centering. Some issues have been there for years and seem to have more of an edge now. It's like the Centering sessions have re-ignited them in a sense. Some issues seem brand new. Shining light into the darkness scatters the darkness for sure, but with the added light, you see a lot more of the stuff that was 'hiding' in the dark. But more on all of that later.

Sending you all love and peace on your journey. Blessings.
Dino